We've just celebrated Christmas and New Year's Day, and my mind is quickly turning towards Lent. With Lent, it seems that the whole world is transformed by the liturgy that recapitulates the Death and Resurrection of Jesus Christ.
Believing, as I'm sure most of you would agree, isn't always easy. This will sound frivolous to you, but my personal struggles come from what my faith tells me and from the seemingly contradictory propositions made in the science arena. I have wrestled with the two since I was a mere child, and getting answers to my questions has been very difficult for me since I don't have anyone in my immediate vicinity to consult with.
Perhaps while I wait for answers, I should interpret my struggles as something analogous to the strain that Jesus faced when He was instructed to spend forty days in the desert, hungry and tempted. My hunger would be for answers (God), and my temptation would be surrender and say there is no God. However, I know that God shall reveal more of Himself to me in due time. During these times of doubt and desolation, He could be calling me to an ever deeper relationship with Him. Also, to help advance our faith it would help to recall those mystics who, throughout the ages, romanticized our hearts by courageously asserting the promises of Jesus Christ. I ask again, could Chardin, C.S. Lewis, Eckhart, Grffiths, Avila, and Lisieux be COMPLETELY wrong? Could they have been victims of megalomania or self-delusion? I think not.
I shall continue to seek my God with all my heart and with all my mind knowing that in due time I shall know more.
"Do not abandon yourselves to despair. We are the Easter people and hallelujah is our song." ~~ Pope John Paul II